It’s been almost four years since I made the promise to God. It was a bit radical in retrospect, but the older I grow, the more I am happy that I did. More and more I see the wisdom in the promise. Sometime before or at the beginning of my sophomore year of high school I promised God that I would dedicate the remaining years of my education (just through to the end of college) to Him—totally and completely. This meant that I decided not to date or get into a relationship beyond friendship with a guy until the end of my years here at Southern. I’m not gonna pretend like it’s been easy. Nor am I gonna pretend that I don’t have the same cravings and desires as everyone else. But that was the purpose of this promise: to work for God with all my heart, undistracted.
My promise has kind of taken a back burner during college—not that I’ve in anyway violated it—I haven’t. In highschool it was easy, but it’s just that now I had somewhat forgotten the part about serving God recklessly. I mean, I’m super involved with ministry, but I’d forgot the radical commitment part, until today. GYCSE had an Advisory Board meeting today. As I spoke with Sikhu (Our representative from GYC National), she said something that really struck me and reminded me of my promise. “These are the best and most energetic years of your life, serve God radically while you can.” So I am. After college, I’ll be busy working with a church and serving that way. Right now I have the freedom to serve God recklessly, and I plan to return to the promise.
What does this mean? I don’t exactly know. I don’t know how/if I’m ever gonna get married. That’s kind of God’s problem. I’m open to where ever, whatever, whoever. But that’s not the focus, the focus is now. I’m going to return to the promise; I’m going to let go and let God. If the road is lonely, if the road is hard, if the remaining three years are the hardest of my life, I’m ready. I’m going to follow. I’m going to crave Him, desire Him, and chase Him—just like I promised.
It’s not three years left—it’s three years more, just three years of guaranteed time to serve. These years? I’m not gonna spend them waiting. I’m serving.
Three years from now? Who knows?
“Though none go with me, still I will follow
Though none go with me, still I will follow,
No turning back, no turning back.”